Sometimes, something happens that is so completely shocking and heart-shattering, that you almost can't believe it's happening. Because it has to be a nightmare, and you're going to wake up, otherwise you can't bear it.

One conversation, one day. It can challenge everything you think you know about yourself. It can leave you wondering who you are. It can leave you wondering if you ever knew who you were. Have you been living a lie? Are you really that naive? How can you ever trust anybody, ever again?

The things you've always taken as fact, are not.

The things you've known were true for decades, aren't. Someone you trusted with your life, your heart, your soul, and your most prized possession proves himself/herself unworthy of that trust. Could you ever really trust them? Maybe you're just stupid. And naive.

It's possible to feel a part of you die, and you know with absolute certainty that you'll never have that part of yourself back. It leaves you broken, and hurting, and bleeding, and crying inside.

You don't feel as if anybody will ever want you again. You don't even know who YOU are.

There are only a few things in this life that can bring this particular kind of pain and devastation....death, terminal illness, divorce. It's a complete and total shock to the system and it leaves you forever changed, deep down in your cells.
- posted by Perpetually Romesick @ 9:14 PM